It'll Be Alright Again

Talk about one of the most amazing nights ever. It was tonight. The night I have been looking forward to all summer, finally arrived.

We got to Usana at about 2, got in line for the Sugarpit and Alisha and Kathie showed up a few minutes later. About 20 minutes after they got here it started pouring down rain, so we went and hid under the K-BUL 93.3 tent.. thanks guys! Then we hung out for a while, walked all the way down the parking lot to see Jenn from a distance during sound check. We had to climb up this hill with all these overgrown sticks and weeds, I got my foot cut and it hurt really bad. After that Alisha went back to save our spots while we went down to Maverick to get a band-aid because it wouldn't stop bleeding. We came back, sat in line for a little longer, then started with the LMP. Demi and I passed out a ton of signs, along with Alisha. We got the radio stations to help out and everything, so it went really well. We even got free T-shirts from 104.3 for doing it :) For a wile we just passed out signs, then when it got closer to the time when we were supposed to go into the venue, we still had a ton of signs, so we gave them to Alisha to take to the Vegas show next weekend. We went into the venue, Whitney led us down, I showed her the Indy shirts, she loved them. We got to our spots, right by Kristian because all of the Jenn spots were taken. We waited about 40 minutes for Sara Bareilles to come on stage. She came on, did her set, did a duet with KRISTIAN! Never seen that before. Sara finished up, she did amazing. Then we waited about half an hour for Sugarland. The lights went dark and I almost started crying. I couldn't believe it. I was seeing Sugarland, live, for the second time in my life when I never thought it could happen the first. The stage was soooo high that we couldn't see them when they did all we are because they did in the background, kind of. Definitely different without a curtain drop or anything but still just as amazing. They came closer as the song went on but I still couldn't see them great. I was still kind of crying so Jenn looked at me and smiled really big, which only made me cry harder. They came to the front of the stage for Stuck Like Glue and I could finally see them clear. In the middle of the last chorus, I pointed at Kristian and was like "You and me baby, we're stuck like glue!!!" He looked at me and just smiled for a while, then waved and went to the other side of the stage. Okay. I started crying :) Happy crying. Couldn't believe it! They did a few songs and then it was Every Girl Like Me time! During the second chorus I was rockin' it out. Jenn walked over to me and started doing the exact same dance moves I was doing, for like, the entire chorus! I was smiling so big I looked scary. She just smiled back and laugh a little :) THENNNNNN... Little Miss. My sign was verryyyyy personal this time. It said "I lost my best friend when the Indy stage fell." I debated a long time on whether to put this on there or not. Because I didn't want them to hurt because I was hurting. But now, I'm really glad I did because I think it meant something to them to see that I, and most of the people out there, we're hurting with them. I held up my sign at the very beginning, and as soon I put it up, Kristian saw it, read it, and started crying. I started BAWLING. Like, I was sobbing so violently, they thought I was having like a seizure or something. Kristian just kept looking at me with his big eyes, like telling me that it was going to be alright again. I remember during the first chorus, turning around, and seeing about 600 of my signs, that I hand made, fill the venue. That make me cry even harder. I couldn't breathe I was crying so hard. A really sweet young man was standing by me in the pit, and I had gotten to know him a little before the show, and he just put his hand on my shoulder and said, "Congratulations, your Sugarfamily is so proud of you." Which made me cry harder. Thank you for doing that, if you're out there reading this. That meant a lot to me. Then, I turned back during the second chorus, and I saw Jenn read my sign, and she got all wet eyed too! And then she looked me straight in the eye, and sang It WILL be alright again. Not IT'LL, like how the lyrics are. IT WILL. Yeah. I felt amazing right then. Then, the entire bridge and last chorus Kristian didn't take his eyes off of me. "Breathe in... breathe out.." all straight to my face. Then, when it was done, he came up to the front and nodded at me, I nodded back and he mouthed "You're okay" and I could only nod back because I felt soooo loved at that moment I didn't know what to do. Way too shortly after that, the concert ended and we had to say goodbye. I met some amazing people tonight I will definitely miss. It's what happens.. you meet them and they are automatically Sugarfamily. I feel so lucky, amazed, and fortunate for tonight. Their music has healed me. My Sugarfamily has healed me. I feel amazing and so incredibly loved. <3 I won't ever forget tonight, the way that Kristian looked at me while singing "Breathe in... breathe out...". He made me feel like I was the only person he cared about at that moment, the only person in the audience. It was like he was saying, "I'm here, you'll be okay, cry, baby, cry if you need to and I am always here for you." And that meant the world to me.

Tonight was amazing.

I'm okay <3

Little Miss Erika