So, my friend's been doing this on her blog and I LOVE it... so from now on I'm gonna do it too:)
Every week I'll give you five songs and obsessed with. Enjoy it:)
5. Everyday America - Sugarland
4. Some People Change - Montgomery Gentry (I love those black ladies in this one.. lol:))
3. I'm not sure what to call this one... LOVE it though.. Sugarland Remix - Sugarland:)
2. Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not - Thompson Square
And my #1 this week... Little Miss - Holly Paige Lawson (Sugarland cover)
So there you are:)
Love you
Erika
PS - Enjoy the music:)
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
My Little Miss Project.
It started out as a song, Little Miss did. A song by the band Sugarland. And it grew. Fans from all around recorded videos of their stories, of what Little Miss they were, and their victories over those Little Misses.
The Little Miss Project (click on the link to watch the where it all started) was noticed by Sugarland themselves within hours of Erica posting the video. Thousands of views and comments flooded in. Sugarland challenged each one of us to create our own video. Our own Little Miss Project.
I hate being on video. And if I was I might start bawling.
So for me, here is my Little Miss Project.
I was two days old when I was adopted. My mom loved me and that's why she gave me up. I don't regret it. It's hard sometimes, for me, to see her with her two little girls now, and think about the jerk who let my mom get pregnant and then left her. With me. It's hard to see her picture and think she's the woman who gave me life. But she had choices and she made the right decision. I still love her no matter what.
When I was 9 when my friend died of cancer. I didn't know how to grieve. I was still a kid. I couldn't figure out how to cope with loosing her to this deadly disease.
I was 11 when the closest friend I've ever had was shot accidentally and died. She was 16. I was still figuring out how to deal with the first death and then this one. I didn't know how to handle the heartbreak.
I never pulled myself through that one. She was my best companion, my standing shoulder, I needed her there.
A few months after I found my saving grace. My aunt moved down to say with us while she was having problems with her back. Although she was always there for me to talk to, she was always sad and I knew I couldn't help her, which didn't make me feel any better. When she went back home after staying with us for 5 months last January, I couldn't bare it. I found myself crying myself to sleep because I felt so lost and alone without her by my side.
The next week I met a little girl who would change my life. Her name is Taylor Love. And from her I would learn about love and heartbreak. She had cancer. She's on her third relapse now. It's so scary, so stressful, every day is like a lifetime when she's fighting for her life in the hospital. This last week she went unconscious and was unresponsive.. we thought we had lost her.
Taylor took me through a lot of hardships I still didn't know how to handle. I'm the kind of person who wants to help everybody. Do whatever I can and it kills me when I can't do anything.
Taylor has helped me branch out in a way, to other kids with cancer. But it hasn't helped to heal my heavy heart. It makes me more stressed, more vulnerable.
In the summer of 2010, 3 of these kids passed away. Ages 9, 5, and 3. Within a few weeks of them 3 of my other close friends passed away. 6 girls I knew passed away within a month of each other. I practically shut myself out from the world. If I didn't know better I would admit to you I was clinically depressed for about 3 months. I didn't go to school. I was sick all the time. I would hurt myself, the physical pain distracting from the mental pain.
After getting over that I was thrown back into reality with a death of another little gal with lung cancer. Two months later my standing rock of salvation died as well.
I wouldn't let myself believe any of it. I blocked out the pain. I put a wall around my heart and didn't let myself love anyone for quite a while.
Through all of the depression I became an emotional eater and I gained a ton of weight. I was constantly teased at school and was never included. I was picked on because of who I was, who I hung out with, and no one believed that I could accomplish anything.
This is when the Little Miss single came out.
I would spend nights in my room bawling as I played the "Hold On" part over, and over, and over again.
I was:
Little Miss I give up
Little Miss it's not worth the fight
Little Miss I'm not worth it
Little Miss I can't be loved
Little Miss why would anyone care about me
Little Miss who cares about my dreams, my accomplishments, what I want
Little Miss I get scared of who I see in the mirror
Little Miss I only smile on the outside
Little Miss people don't see me for me
Little Miss I'm afraid I'll loose everything I love
That's changed <3
Because I am loved.
And I'm stronger than I look on the outside.
Every time I fall flat on my face I will get back up.
You will never see me loose part of myself.
I won't give up the fight.
I promise.
It's something that sometimes you have to remind yourself of. That you're stronger than they think you are. That you're better than them. Things haven't really changed. My girls are still gone. I'm still picked on. Even just last month my grandma died and that left a huge hole in my heart. But sometimes you gotta loose until you win. And one of these days you start winning. And you might fall. But I will NEVER give up. No matter what comes my way. I've over come more than I ever thought I could. That's who I am. That's my test.
But I am loved.
So are you.
By me.
I love you.
I'm okay.
Little Miss big ole heart beats WIDE OPEN she's ready now for LOVE
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
It's about impossible for them to read this, but maybe, if there's a chance, Jennifer and Kristian, thank you for the song Little Miss. For showing us we are LOVED. And we always will be. Thank you for inspiring us with not only Little Miss but the rest of your music, and with your amazing personalities. We look up to you. We love you.
Little Miss Erika
The Little Miss Project (click on the link to watch the where it all started) was noticed by Sugarland themselves within hours of Erica posting the video. Thousands of views and comments flooded in. Sugarland challenged each one of us to create our own video. Our own Little Miss Project.
I hate being on video. And if I was I might start bawling.
So for me, here is my Little Miss Project.
I was two days old when I was adopted. My mom loved me and that's why she gave me up. I don't regret it. It's hard sometimes, for me, to see her with her two little girls now, and think about the jerk who let my mom get pregnant and then left her. With me. It's hard to see her picture and think she's the woman who gave me life. But she had choices and she made the right decision. I still love her no matter what.
When I was 9 when my friend died of cancer. I didn't know how to grieve. I was still a kid. I couldn't figure out how to cope with loosing her to this deadly disease.
I was 11 when the closest friend I've ever had was shot accidentally and died. She was 16. I was still figuring out how to deal with the first death and then this one. I didn't know how to handle the heartbreak.
I never pulled myself through that one. She was my best companion, my standing shoulder, I needed her there.
A few months after I found my saving grace. My aunt moved down to say with us while she was having problems with her back. Although she was always there for me to talk to, she was always sad and I knew I couldn't help her, which didn't make me feel any better. When she went back home after staying with us for 5 months last January, I couldn't bare it. I found myself crying myself to sleep because I felt so lost and alone without her by my side.
The next week I met a little girl who would change my life. Her name is Taylor Love. And from her I would learn about love and heartbreak. She had cancer. She's on her third relapse now. It's so scary, so stressful, every day is like a lifetime when she's fighting for her life in the hospital. This last week she went unconscious and was unresponsive.. we thought we had lost her.
Taylor took me through a lot of hardships I still didn't know how to handle. I'm the kind of person who wants to help everybody. Do whatever I can and it kills me when I can't do anything.
Taylor has helped me branch out in a way, to other kids with cancer. But it hasn't helped to heal my heavy heart. It makes me more stressed, more vulnerable.
In the summer of 2010, 3 of these kids passed away. Ages 9, 5, and 3. Within a few weeks of them 3 of my other close friends passed away. 6 girls I knew passed away within a month of each other. I practically shut myself out from the world. If I didn't know better I would admit to you I was clinically depressed for about 3 months. I didn't go to school. I was sick all the time. I would hurt myself, the physical pain distracting from the mental pain.
After getting over that I was thrown back into reality with a death of another little gal with lung cancer. Two months later my standing rock of salvation died as well.
I wouldn't let myself believe any of it. I blocked out the pain. I put a wall around my heart and didn't let myself love anyone for quite a while.
Through all of the depression I became an emotional eater and I gained a ton of weight. I was constantly teased at school and was never included. I was picked on because of who I was, who I hung out with, and no one believed that I could accomplish anything.
This is when the Little Miss single came out.
I would spend nights in my room bawling as I played the "Hold On" part over, and over, and over again.
I was:
Little Miss I give up
Little Miss it's not worth the fight
Little Miss I'm not worth it
Little Miss I can't be loved
Little Miss why would anyone care about me
Little Miss who cares about my dreams, my accomplishments, what I want
Little Miss I get scared of who I see in the mirror
Little Miss I only smile on the outside
Little Miss people don't see me for me
Little Miss I'm afraid I'll loose everything I love
That's changed <3
Because I am loved.
And I'm stronger than I look on the outside.
Every time I fall flat on my face I will get back up.
You will never see me loose part of myself.
I won't give up the fight.
I promise.
It's something that sometimes you have to remind yourself of. That you're stronger than they think you are. That you're better than them. Things haven't really changed. My girls are still gone. I'm still picked on. Even just last month my grandma died and that left a huge hole in my heart. But sometimes you gotta loose until you win. And one of these days you start winning. And you might fall. But I will NEVER give up. No matter what comes my way. I've over come more than I ever thought I could. That's who I am. That's my test.
But I am loved.
So are you.
By me.
I love you.
I'm okay.
Little Miss big ole heart beats WIDE OPEN she's ready now for LOVE
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
It's about impossible for them to read this, but maybe, if there's a chance, Jennifer and Kristian, thank you for the song Little Miss. For showing us we are LOVED. And we always will be. Thank you for inspiring us with not only Little Miss but the rest of your music, and with your amazing personalities. We look up to you. We love you.
Little Miss Erika
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Day 20...
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel..
Baton Rouge, LA
Toronto Canada
Howell, MI
Memphis. TN
Nashville, TN
and Sugar Land, TX:)
Monday, March 21, 2011
Day 19..
Day 19- A picture of my favorite letterSometimes I think whoever made up this picture thing was an idiot. I mean, a letter? Come on.
But none the less....
I like the letter S. Sugarland:) Songbird:)
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Cover CD!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! I recorded my first COVER CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Blahh:) I'ma happy:)
It wasn't some of my best singing but it worked.
If anyone would like a copy - I am selling them for $2 and all the proceeds go directly to Taylor Love. It's illegal to sell other people's music so you aren't really paying for the music, it's just a fundraiser. No copyright intended. If you'd like to get one email me with your address or something and I will ship you one!!! Thanks so much for all your support guys!!
Love you!!!
Erika
It wasn't some of my best singing but it worked.
If anyone would like a copy - I am selling them for $2 and all the proceeds go directly to Taylor Love. It's illegal to sell other people's music so you aren't really paying for the music, it's just a fundraiser. No copyright intended. If you'd like to get one email me with your address or something and I will ship you one!!! Thanks so much for all your support guys!!
Love you!!!
Erika
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Day 18...
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity....
Definitely my weight. Something I've tried to control all my life and nothing works.
Definitely my weight. Something I've tried to control all my life and nothing works.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day 17..
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recentlyI FINALLY met that girl:)
That was HUUGE:)
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
Day 15..
Day 15 - Something you want to do before you die...I want so desperately to meet my inspiration, Jennifer Nettles:) And Kristian... he'd be pretty awesome to meet too:)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Day 14..
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without...
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Day 13...
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Easiest blog post ever:)
I (SO FAR BEYOND) LOOOOOOOVEEEE SUGARLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Easiest blog post ever:)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I love this "Awful, Beautiful Life"
WOW! Crazy, amazing, beautiful, exciting weekend full of happy tears, big hugs, and other wonderful things:)
But here's the best of it all:
I GOT TO MEET HOLLY PAIGE LAWSON FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Holy crap.
Was that amazing or what...
So we flew into the Detroit airport around 11:00 Wednesday night, got up the next morning, went into downtown, checked out the Detroit Zoo and stuff like that. Then around 4 we started heading over to Howell, had dinner there and checked out downtown, then went off to the show. We got there right as the doors were opening so we had pretty good seats.
Right before the show started I got to feeling pretty sick. I mean, there wasn't any reason to it, this is her show and I'd be the one laughing if she messed up. But I was SOOO nervous. I mean, I met this girl over Youtube, I didn't know what she was really gonna be like or anything. I mean I had an idea but I wasn't sure. So I spent the majority of the 30 minute wait in the bathroom:) That was fun.
When the show started I really started freaking out. I mean, I was about to see the girl I've looked up to for so long and was so amazed by. She ran out on stage and I just about lost it. It was Holly. In the flesh. Like if I wanted to I could've ran up and actually touched her. That would be weird but I could've. Anyway. That was pretty dramatic.
You see, we just kind of made our way over there, no contact to Holly the entire day. That was a little rude on my part, I could've at least let her know we were there:) But hey, whatever. So she never knew if we really made it until she saw me during the second act. Oh man, when I knew she saw me, I started like hyperventilating. She said she almost stopped breathing. That would've been funny on stage. I'd have laughed:)
Around the last few musical number I really started freaking out. Like really. I practically ran out of the auditorium when the show was over so I could be there to tackle my girl if she was one of the first ones out:) When she came out someone else was there to greet her first, but after she ran over to me screaming and she just about bowled me over with the tackle:) But WOW did that feel amazing. I don't think I've ever had a better tackle. She started crying, I almost started crying but I was fresh out of tears considering I'd been crying practically through the entire show, and if I started I may never stop:)
It took a little while to actually realize this was all actually happening. I've had dreams about this night so it was hard to convince myself I wasn't going to wake up this time. This was unfolding right before my eyes. This night I had been waiting for for such a long time. This night I had been counting down to since November. I loved it. It was there. And it was now. I couldn't convince myself of that because I knew if I did I'd start crying and probably not stop. I mean, it was HER!!!
She dragged me around a while talking to her other friends and such, I got a lot of hugs from people I didn't know and absolutely loved it:) Then we made our way over to her house.
Now, we met over Youtube, of course she's going to sing to me live when I get there. But I wasn't expecting what I got. She's amazing as she is, practically flawless every time I listen to her, and she very expressive in what she does. Then you see her, hear her, live. Whoa. I was floored. She was flawless. Like beyond flawless. There was something there that wasn't usually there. Maybe it's just because it was live and I've never heard it that way before, but whatever it was, it was absolutely stunning. Flawlessly stunning. The best I've ever heard her. Amazing.
I still kinda have to slap myself every time I think about it to convince myself that it was true. I can't wait to go back there again soon:) She's so amazing, so sweet and good to me and I love her more than words can say. She won't ever understand how much I care about her. She's my personal little lifesaver that lifts me up on her shoulders every time I fall down, which happens to be a lot:) I love that girl. She's my hero, my inspiration, my light that I look up to in life. She's so beautifully amazing. I love her <3
I can die happy tonight:) That was my goal in life and it's done. Well, meeting Sugarland is still on there, but that can wait if it needs to. I'm content:)
Lots of love,
Erika
But here's the best of it all:
I GOT TO MEET HOLLY PAIGE LAWSON FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Holy crap.
Was that amazing or what...
So we flew into the Detroit airport around 11:00 Wednesday night, got up the next morning, went into downtown, checked out the Detroit Zoo and stuff like that. Then around 4 we started heading over to Howell, had dinner there and checked out downtown, then went off to the show. We got there right as the doors were opening so we had pretty good seats.
Right before the show started I got to feeling pretty sick. I mean, there wasn't any reason to it, this is her show and I'd be the one laughing if she messed up. But I was SOOO nervous. I mean, I met this girl over Youtube, I didn't know what she was really gonna be like or anything. I mean I had an idea but I wasn't sure. So I spent the majority of the 30 minute wait in the bathroom:) That was fun.
When the show started I really started freaking out. I mean, I was about to see the girl I've looked up to for so long and was so amazed by. She ran out on stage and I just about lost it. It was Holly. In the flesh. Like if I wanted to I could've ran up and actually touched her. That would be weird but I could've. Anyway. That was pretty dramatic.
You see, we just kind of made our way over there, no contact to Holly the entire day. That was a little rude on my part, I could've at least let her know we were there:) But hey, whatever. So she never knew if we really made it until she saw me during the second act. Oh man, when I knew she saw me, I started like hyperventilating. She said she almost stopped breathing. That would've been funny on stage. I'd have laughed:)
Around the last few musical number I really started freaking out. Like really. I practically ran out of the auditorium when the show was over so I could be there to tackle my girl if she was one of the first ones out:) When she came out someone else was there to greet her first, but after she ran over to me screaming and she just about bowled me over with the tackle:) But WOW did that feel amazing. I don't think I've ever had a better tackle. She started crying, I almost started crying but I was fresh out of tears considering I'd been crying practically through the entire show, and if I started I may never stop:)
It took a little while to actually realize this was all actually happening. I've had dreams about this night so it was hard to convince myself I wasn't going to wake up this time. This was unfolding right before my eyes. This night I had been waiting for for such a long time. This night I had been counting down to since November. I loved it. It was there. And it was now. I couldn't convince myself of that because I knew if I did I'd start crying and probably not stop. I mean, it was HER!!!
She dragged me around a while talking to her other friends and such, I got a lot of hugs from people I didn't know and absolutely loved it:) Then we made our way over to her house.
Now, we met over Youtube, of course she's going to sing to me live when I get there. But I wasn't expecting what I got. She's amazing as she is, practically flawless every time I listen to her, and she very expressive in what she does. Then you see her, hear her, live. Whoa. I was floored. She was flawless. Like beyond flawless. There was something there that wasn't usually there. Maybe it's just because it was live and I've never heard it that way before, but whatever it was, it was absolutely stunning. Flawlessly stunning. The best I've ever heard her. Amazing.
I still kinda have to slap myself every time I think about it to convince myself that it was true. I can't wait to go back there again soon:) She's so amazing, so sweet and good to me and I love her more than words can say. She won't ever understand how much I care about her. She's my personal little lifesaver that lifts me up on her shoulders every time I fall down, which happens to be a lot:) I love that girl. She's my hero, my inspiration, my light that I look up to in life. She's so beautifully amazing. I love her <3
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| Love this girl:) <3 |
I can die happy tonight:) That was my goal in life and it's done. Well, meeting Sugarland is still on there, but that can wait if it needs to. I'm content:)
Lots of love,
Erika
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Day 10..
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the craziest things with...<- I do the craziest things with her...
I say the craziest things to her ->
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