"It's hard to say goodbye.. cause baby it's a good life"

In 2 months, I have lost 7 of my closest friends, neighbors, and some of the best people I've had in my life.

May 8 - Jessica was hit in a car crashed and died that night
May 10 - Audrey had a severe asthma attack and died that morning
June 2 - Bro Babb, the man who sealed me to my family in the temple, passed away when he fell and stopped breathing
June 6 - LoRee, a close friend of mine, passed away and they don't know the reason why
June 14 - Noelle passed away because she fell while hiking
June 21 - Annabelle left this world due to heart complications
June 29 - Ava died because her kidneys stopped working


It's been a roller coaster ride. I've been in some of the darkest places of my life and experienced some of the most joyous moments at the same time. I love you guys!

Never wears off

The excitement, the rush, of being published, well it never wears off. It's an amazing accomplishment.. and amazes me more than most with the stuff I'm dealing with now.

My poem was dedicated to a little girl I've known for about 3 years now. She has been battling a very rare and difficult cancer since she was 18 months old. She has had to undergo a number of treatments due to this cancer, Neuroblastoma, as doctors try to find a cure. She has been through over 11 surgeries (and she's only 5 years old, that's about two surgeries a year) along with blood platelet transfusions, CAT, MRI, and Nuclear scans, bone marrow biopsies, stem cell harvests, radiation treatment to head, orbits, and abdomen, Phase I radiation immunotherapy trial, and Phase II antibody immunotherapy.
Little Miss Taylor is now battling a new form of cancer. Chemo-Induced Leukemia has taken over the poor child's body.
Please pray for Taylor, and donate money if you can.
Go to http://taylorlove.org or www.facebook.com/lovetaylorlove to learn more about Taylor, Neuroblastoma, Chemo-Induced Leukemia, and children like Taylor battling these deadly cancers.

Oh, and here's the poem I wrote ;-)

Truly amazing as she fights her way
Agonizing everyday
Yelling, screaming, crying for help
Loathing all the pain that's felt
Ordinary, that's all she wants to be
Relieved from treatment, feeling free

Loving life while she's got the chance
Opening her heart, feeling the dance
Very fearful for when she might die
Everyone is blessed to have her in their life

A Bunch of Songs!

Whoo hoo! I finally started guitar lessons after about 2 months of teaching myself online!! I love my teacher. His name is Dave. He likes guitar. I like guitar. We have a lot in common.
I'm playing a bunch of songs now. I can play:

Last Kiss by Pearl Jam
Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day
Fall into Me by Sugarland
We Run by Sugarland
The Night the Lights Went out in Georgia by Reba McEntire
I'll Keep on Loving You by Reba McEntire
Angel by Sarah McLachlan
I Will Remember You by That Guy That I Don't Know His Name
Good Riddance by Greenday
Twist and Shout by the Beatles
Fancy by Reba
When You Say Nothing at All by Allison Kraus
Streets of Heaven by Sherrie Austin
How Great Thou Art
Temporary Home by Carrie Underwood (WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOO!!!)
and I Told You So by Carrie Underwood (Ok.. I know it wasn't by her.. but it's her version.)

I love it!! Haha :-)

Life is Good...

Today was my friend Hannah Campbell's birthday party.. so fun! We went and decorated cakes at her aunts professional kitchen! Mine ended up looking pretty stupid.. but it tasted pretty good :-)
I also went bowling with my best friend Caroline! Oh man. So fun. We bowled with skittles. Before each turn, we would pick a skittle out of a bag. Each color meant something different.
For example:
Orange - We had to use the little kiddie ramp.
Yellow - Had to bowl on your knees.
Green - Bowl on one leg. That was hard.
Purple - Bowl with the hand you don't usually bowl with.
Red - Oh man. This one was embarrassing. Bowl backwards in between your legs. Ha.

There were a lot of Yellows and Greens. Only 2 Oranges and 6 Reds were found in the bag.

After we bowled, we ate J-Dawgs, chips, and candy until we were sick. Then we played with my bouncy ball and laughed until we were rolling on the floor - literally! Oh man. I love friends who are just as crazy as me.

Now.. it's finally the weekend. And not only that.. it's the last weekend before SUMMER!!!!!!! Hallelujahs!!

On the down side.. my dog ate a whole jar of her vitamins and we had to call poison control. They think she's gonna be okay but we gotta watch her for a couple days. Always makes me nervous :-/

Oh today... You were.. ah.. well.. slightly wonderful

If the best and the worst day could be combined into one... that would be today. Today was one of those days where you realized how much you loved someone who's slipped away. Today was also a day that you wanted to hug everyone because you feel so loved. :-)

Heartbreak

This is for all the men and women fighting in the field for our country. Thank you for your service.

I'm so sorry to the families who have suffered loss or heartbreak.

It's like a battle cry
Calling out your name
Wishing you were here with me

Its so hard to think
Of letting you go,
Of letting you leave

And I will try to give you my all
Just as long as you promise me
You'll answer when I call, Oh oh

Just promise me you'll never break my heart
Just tell me that you'll make it safely home
Cause I know what its like, to feel alone, Oh oh
Just tell me that you know this isn't a mistake,
Cause I don't want to wait around, for the heartbreak

As the war goes on,
I just miss you more,
Wondering how long this will last

Thinking of tomorrow,
But holding on to the past

And I will try to give you my all
Just as long as you promise me
You'll answer when I call, Oh oh

Just promise me you'll never break my heart
Just tell me that you'll make it safely home
Cause I know what its like, to feel alone, Oh oh
Just tell me that you know this isn't a mistake,
Cause I don't want to wait around, for the heartbreak

And I dont know what to do,
Hold on or let go of you
And I know that your on the field,
But I need you to be my shield

And do the things you need to do,
I'll be waiting here, for you
And I know that your there to fight,
So just be brave you'll be alright

And I will try to give you my all
Just as long as you promise me
You'll answer when I call, Oh oh

Just promise me you'll never break my heart
Just tell me that you'll make it safely home
Cause I know what its like, to feel alone, Oh oh
Just tell me that you know this isn't a mistake,
Cause I don't want to wait around,
Yeah I dont want to wait around,
For the heartbreak

There are people you love in this world. For example: I love Joni and Critters and Jess'ca. I love Anna and Brita and Nicole and Caroline. I love Patsy and Audrey and Brooke and Taylor and Brit. And I love Lynne and Julie and Katie and Kristin and Rebekah.
I've lost two people I love within almost one short year of each other. But what I've lost is nothing compared to what one of my best friends lost. My best friend lost her father, and now her brother due to war. Men like this are fighting and dying everyday. Why can't we just end the war? What is so special about sending troops on the field to die? What's so wrong with peace?

This is for you, sweet girlie Dawn. I love you bunches. RIP to your brother and your dad. Because my heroes, and your heroes, are wearing combat boots.

He sees the broken bodies around him
He waits for the war cry
And wonders if he'll make it home
To tell his baby son goodbye

The fear is all around him
The death of a good friend
His holds the letter he received today close
Lets his heart hold his love in

He's fighting for my freedom
His love for his country shows
But his light shines through his invisible cape
Because my hero wears army clothes