Friday, December 31, 2010

New Year

I cannot believe that 2010 is OVER! It's OVER! Gone.. history. I swear yesterday was like January. This year went by way to fast and while it had it's ups and downs I wouldn't trade it for the world. I lost some friends, lost myself, found out who my true friends are, found myself, chased my dream, worked my butt of trying to get them in perspective, made some bonds I'll never forget with some people I'll never forget, found weakness and fought harder, found strength and made sure it wasn't breakable, had moments I'll regret but found ways to see it through, and most of all, I found people I can't live without that push me through each and every day.

January - My aunt Joni was still living with us in January. For those who don't know the story, she came to live with us last August when she was having troubles with her lower back joints and stuff. She went home in January, after 5 months of living with us down here. She lives in Kaysville and is improving with her back but is still not 100%.
Andrew also turned 14 in January. ANDREW. My brother.. man it's gonna be so weird when he gets his learners permit next year.

February - Well, after Joni left I must say I kinda went into this little like depression state. It wasn't like depression depression but I was just sad and sick all the time. Everyone who knows me knows that though.
I don't remember much of February, just being home a lot dying of stomach pains that now I'm not sure were even there. That little while definitely strengthened me a lot and it's something I won't do to myself again.
I got to go to Sea World in February as well. Just a short trip for my father and I :) San Diego stuff.. fun fun:)
I do remember I bought my first Sugarland album in May, later returning to buy the other three I didn't have.. (stuck that in just for you, Holly) ;)

March - March was actually a surprisingly good month. I was able to mostly pull myself out of whatever I was doing to myself and enjoy time with my family and friends again. In March I started following a user on Youtube by the name of hollycheerbb22. Yeah, Holly Paige Lawson. Though at this point in time, I really didn't like her voice all that much. I felt like she was pushin' it too hard.

April - Nothing exciting happened it April. I can't even remember April for all I know.

May - May... One of my penpals died from a car crash in May. But that didn't scar me all too much. Still miss her but not as much as Ansley or Kat.
I got accepted into Student Council, first semester, in May. I was super excited and couldn't wait for the new school year to start, even though the one we were in was just ending.
I survived elementary and graduated from the 6th grade. That was "exciting".
Anyways, the only thing I really remember about May is Memorial Day. The family all went to my grandma's for a barbecue. I wasn't feeling too well that day but I still went. I'm glad I did. In the middle of our barbecue we started planning out what we all wanted to do for the Fourth of July. The rest of the family wanted to get together on the 3rd because the 4th was on a Sunday this year.. but I couldn't do that because I was going to Stadium of Fire on the Third.
Now, before I continue the story, you must know a little bit about the next character in the story. I've talked about her all too much before but she's my life. Vivian Wayman, born March 14, 40 years old. She's always been an adopted family member but I never knew much about her. I minded my own business and she didn't seem to care to get to know me either.
But anyways, Vivian pipes up about Stadium of Fire, asking how we got tickets and stuff. She had really wanted to go. I don't know how it ended this way, but when we were done, it was Vivian and I going instead of my dad and I going.
I thought this was a little odd considering I barely knew her, but I was okay with it. Someone who actually appreciated the kind of music we were going to listen to.
Later, I was on the computer upstairs when Vivian and my Grandpa came up. He was showing Vivian a song or something and eventually in ended in us singing together around the computer. She had the most amazing voice. Ever. Besides Holly of course but anyways. I remember we ended the night fighting over boxes of Junior Mints:)

June - I didn't hear from Vivian past then. For a while I thought we were totally just kidding about her coming to the concert with me but I didn't care.. either way was fine with me. A lot of people died in June but I didn't let myself feel anything because I didn't want it to ruin what I had worked for back in February. June was spent teaching myself how to play guitar. I learned a lot more than I thought I could, getting down the basic chords and simple strumming patterns. I got my grandpa's old guitar to work on and I was soon able to play some simple Carrie Underwood and Sugarland songs. Were they right.. probably not, but hey, I felt pretty accomplished.
I cut my hair in June as well, shorter than I had it but no layers yet.

July - July. July changed my life. That's the best way to put it. It started with Stadium of Fire. Vivian came, we went to dinner downtown at the festival, (I met Brit there, who I hadn't seen in like FOREVER, and I was like wayyy insanely excited) and then we went off to the Stadium. I learned a lot about her that night. I couldn't get enough of her hugs and later she sent me an email saying she couldn't get enough of mine either. Carrie Underwood performed and by the end we were both up on our feet dancing and singing 'till our lungs couldn't take it anymore. I remember the feeling of being in her arms that night... I never knew a hug could feel that good. Like a hug could fix everything.
That next Monday was our family party, and Vivian showed up. I brought my guitar and we spend a little while playing it, enjoying ourselves. I still was pretty limited to what I could play, considering the fact I hadn't had any official lessons yet. It was fun anyways and I didn't want to go home. While we were there, Vivian asked my dad if he would let her take me to a concert that weekend.
So that Friday, I was seeing Restless Heart in concert. I must say it was enjoyable, though I didn't know any of the songs I had the most wonderful time there with her. My grandparents came as well but all I remember is sitting next to Vivian listenin' to her sing.
The next night I knew there was a band performing that she wanted to see. So there I was again, Saturday night, at the Sandy Amphitheater, singing at the top of my lungs. I got a call during the concert that a friend of mine was dying, and she was gone by the end of the concert. It really helped to have Vivian there. That was a good concert.
We went to a concert every weekend in July.. though we might have missed one because of girls camp or something. My favorite was the Charley Jenkins one... I love his songs and stuff.
At the end of June I got to take a trip with my dad to CA. We went to San Louis Obispo, Monterey, San Fransisco, and Sacramento. It was lots of fun.
Also in July I went to my first year of Girls Camp. I was pretty sick that week but it was still a lot of fun. My best friend in our beehive group didn't come so I was pretty sad about that. I enjoyed it though, but it was a week I don't wish to repeat.

August - The first week of August was our last concert at the amphitheater. Due West was in concert, one of my favorite bands. I had a huge surprise for Vivian that night. I had been saving up all summer to get her a guitar. I know she was looking at playing but.. I don't know.. I was just feeling like I wanted to do something for her to thank her for all the stuff she had done for me that summer. So I got her a guitar. She was so surprised and I was so excited. That night we were both in tears a bit:) Happy tears.
I started my first year in Middle School in August. I absolutely love middle school. So much better than elementary. I do miss some of my little friends that are growing up now but I live. In August I auditioned for the school play and made it. We started rehearsals right away and immediately I loved it. It was time consuming and some days were hard but I still enjoyed it a lot. I made some really good friends from that play.
In August I bought Holly's CD and began to get to know her really well. She was so sweet to me, being like 4 years younger than her and immediately she was like an older sister to me. I love her.
I also got published for the sixth time in August in a book that my friend, Miriam, is also published in. That was fun:)
I also was able to compete in my first talent competition in August. I really enjoyed it though I was off tune a bit when I performed. Oh well, there's always next time.

September - September was Caroline's birthday, so we had this major like practically two day sleep over. Way fun.
Not much happened in September, I was super busy with the play and things. I did take up voice lessons and (finally) guitar lessons in September. Both of which I really enjoy.
I cut my hair in September. That was fun.

October - was Katelyn's 18th birthday. We celebrated, let balloons go up at the cemetery.
October also brought around UEA Break so my family (well, except for my mom who stayed home to babysit the dogs) went to CA. Disneyland:) It was way fun.

November - November brought around show time for the play. Vivian surprised me by coming and Brit was there opening night. Mrs. H. came as well and other friends from other stuff. It was lots of fun and I hope everyone who came enjoyed it. I'm still super sad it is over and I hope it will be just as wonderful next year, and I hope that I will be able to be in it. It was way too fun not to do it again. Lots of hard work but it payed off and I don't regret it.
Turkey Day was fun in November:) I stuffed myself but it was an enjoyable stuff.:)

December - My birthday is in December. This year I got a guitar and a few other things:) It was really a fun birthday, though my dad was out of town for my actual birthday. I was able to sleep over with Caroline again and that was really fun. We had a Twilight marathon, because she had never seen the movies and I wanted to see the third.
I also got my wisdom teeth out recently. Pain! I was throwing up on Christmas Eve but felt much better by Christmas.
Just yesterday I cut my hair. A new look for the new year.


Now that 2010 is over, I'm really looking forward to 2011. I'm going to put my heart to something and achieve it. I'm going to get off my lazy butt and do something about what I want to do.

My resolutions..

1. Drop 20 pounds by March
2. Be able to do bar chords and power chords on guitar
3. Strengthen my voice and vocal chords
4. Record my CD:)
5. Enjoy life:)
6. Stop being so annoying to some people
7. Don't be so easily annoyed
8. Spend more time with your family and friends
9. Spend less time on the computer
10. Continue to get good grades
11. Finally meet Holly Lawson
12. Chase down my dreams with all I've got and work my butt of to see them come true
13. Go to a Sugarland Concert
14. Write more
15. Share my writing more
16. Find something new that I love
17. Eat better
18. Smile and laugh more
19. Sleep more
20. Help others as much as I can

I'll update them more when I have more... :)

Thank you all for a great year of awesomeness:)

I hope you all have a fantastic 2011 filled with good health and endless possibilities!

I love you:)

Erika

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Change of plans :)

For part of my Christmas/birthday present.. my dad offered to take me to Nashville in the Spring. I've always wanted to go to Nashville, I've been begging him to do it for soooooooo long. So he finally gave in. But I must say, last night, those plans changed.

You guys all know about Holly Lawson. I've posted about her a million times.

She's amazing.

Well last night we were talking about a show she's doing in March. I'd kill to be up there for her but I didn't think we could pull it off 'cause we're tight on money and I didn't think my dad would let me have two trips in the same month.

You know how the second it hits you, you know your idea is genius and actually could work if you pull it off correctly? This was one of those ideas.

So with a little compromising and stuff... instead of Nashville I'm going to MI this Spring.

To see Holly. Holly Lawson. Holly Paige Lawson.

I'm going to die if I really have to wait until March.

OH MY GOSH I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like extremely.


But anyways.

You know those friends that just understand you because they've been through the same thing? I learned that about Holly last night. She's so much like me it's almost scary. She's sooooo sweet to me, I feel so stupid because me with all my stupid 13 year old comments and she's almost 17... the poor girl has to put up with me sooo much, ha ha. But boy do I love her. She's always just so amazing to me, compliments me all the time and is always there if I need anything from her, and she always pulls through for me. Last night she even like seriously offered to pay my way up to MI just to see her. She said she could have it paid off by February... I can't believe she was willing to work for over two months for me. Me. Dang it she makes me feel special... like I'm finally really worth something to someone and someone cares to watch me succeed in all I do. I relate to her so well. She's more than a friend, more like the sister I never had. I love her so much, even she has no idea how much and she'll never know. =)

I love you Holly! I can't wait to see you <3

Erika

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Everything is Temporary ♥

Merry Christmas ♥

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday! I know I did! For Christmas I got TONS of sheet music and two hours of recording time in the Smile Productions Studio!!!!!!!! Um... I'm like TOTALLY EXCITED! And you know what's even better.... we're thinking of selling my cover CDs for a fundraiser for the COPE foundation. The COPE foundation is a foundation created in memory of a few special people who... you guessed it... lost their life to cancer. It's close to my heart because part of that foundation was created in memory of Ans. Yes, I know it's illegal to sell other peoples music... so you're not going to be paying for the music.. you pay for the shipping and the cost of the actual CD and stuff, lol. They'd probably be around $5 but we're still working that out soooooooo... we'll see.

Also for Christmas I got some Sugarland Merch, some new jackets and shirts and stuff, lots of music, and some new software to record stuff on my computer. And I got a ton of necklaces. They are my new obsession. I love necklaces. =)

You know what hurts really bad? Getting your wisdom teeth removed the day after you have an orthodontist appointment and two days before Christmas. Yes. I'm 12 and I've had my wisdom teeth removed. Honestly, I just went in to have surgery on my twelve year old molar because I have a molar missing and it makes my mouth really unbalanced with one on top and not one on bottom. So I had to have that top one out. And then my mom decided that while they were putting me to sleep anyways they should take my wisdom teeth out. Awesome. I was in so much pain. Yesterday I spent vomiting because my stomach didn't like the pain medication. I'm feeling so much better today though. I'm eating more solid foods and finally singing and playing guitar again.

Which brings us around to tonight. Singing and playing guitar. Vivian came over. Yeah. I had no idea. Boy was I surprised. I was in my room, door closed, cleanin' my disgusting room, singin' at the top of my lungs and she just like walks in.... I died. Lol. It's true. I haven't seen her in maybe 2 or 3 months. So me, in all my puffy swollen face glory, had the best Christmas afternoon ever singing and playing guitar with the most amazing lady I've known <3 That was fun. I love you Vivs!!

I love songwriting.

I love Taylor.

I love Holly Paige Lawson.

I love Miriam Castle.

And Anna Wallace.

Don't forget Ans.

And everyone else. ;)

And Brit. I miss her.

I love Little Big Town.

And Sugarland.

Not to mention Reba.

Country music.

I love you.

You. Right there.

Thanks for radiating your awesomeness to me.

Merry Christmas everyone! Don't forget the reason for the season. This is to the little baby who lay in a manger that first Christmas night... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Erika

Friday, December 17, 2010

We will start with the good news...

Taylor is cancer free. And so is Zowie. Happy holidays =)

My birthday was last Friday.. good day =)

I love Nicole Lovell.

And Holly Paige Lawson.

Bad news....

Ans died yesterday morn.

RIP

We love you girl

Erika